Over the past few nights, I’ve been experiencing some type of bone-deep pain in my left hip/thigh. This doesn’t really happen when I’m just sitting around the house, and in fact I can go all day without feeling it, but the second I lie down in bed… ughh. Doesn’t matter which side I lie on, the moment I need to move my left leg (to roll over or just to adjust my positioning) there’s this shooting pain from my hip down through my thigh. Last night I had some sort of aching pain in my lower back that didn’t HURT so much as it made me feel incredibly sick to my stomach. I think this is sciatica, and since we’re heading to the midwife tomorrow I’ll be sure to ask.
Also, and I’m sure you are all so thrilled to come here & read about this, there’s something wrong with my butt. Like maybe hemorrhoids. I don’t want to look them up on Google, because I’m positive there will be all sorts of hideous pictures of people with anal issues so severe that I’ll be permanently scarred (like that time I was drunk and looked up ‘wound’ on Google images… THAT WAS SMART). But yeah, there’s some bump, it hurts, it’s fucking uncomfortable, and I’m pretty pissed off at whatever it is. Now I need to figure out how to fix it. And then ask my midwife, in front of my husband, how to make it better.
Last night I decided to take a bath, and the second I settled down into the water Maia started kicking around all delightedly, just like when I took one last week. This makes me pretty happy… until I get out of the bath and settle down onto the couch with the dogs and she starts kicking my cervix. CHILD, YOU ARE NOT SUPPOSED TO BE IN THAT POSITION. Now, why this pisses me off so badly is because just recently I was ranting to both my mother and Chris about how annoyed I am at the entire concept of having to try and ‘brute force’ my baby into the right position. I mean, for 31 weeks now, Maia and I have been doing everything right; we’ve had no problems whatsoever. It’s natural for a baby to swing around into the ‘proper’ birth position; less than 5% of babies are in the breech position at term. I have total faith that she’ll move, and I think that trying to push her around with something horrible like putting a bag of COLD PEAS on her noggin is pretty brutal. And I’ll be real with you, for the past week or so I hadn’t felt her moving around down low at all, so when she decided to prance on my cervix yesterday I just about started crying.
Oh, and to top it all off, I made coffee with breakfast for Chris & I yesterday… then got so fucking nauseated at the smell of the coffee as I poured his mug that I couldn’t even eat the eggs & toast I’d made. Seriously? I thought I got over the nausea thing at like 16 weeks. I’ve been regularly enjoying cups of coffee for the past few months, which is great since I was a total addict before I got pregnant. Am I done with coffee now? Is our relationship on hold until February? …….. wouldn’t that be a really great excuse to keep hot chocolate in the house?
So, that’s the pregnancy news for the past little while. I know it all sounds negative, but I’m still pretty happy with being pregnant even though I’m definitely counting down the days until she’s here. I’m heading to the library today to grab a bunch of books on the entire ‘giving birth’ thing.